Two Roads diverged in a Yellow Wood ....

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there,

Had worn them really about the same

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood,

and I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference !

Robert Frost (1874–1963)





Ironically maybe, this is the only poem i remember word for word from my school days!! have a vague memory there bring a possibility of detention being the cause of that!!


but little did i know it would be so apt :)


What a year it has been! this time last year...... Canada was merely a thought, i hadn't set foot in the country yet! i just knew i was coming out here for an interview (free trip to Canada being the main appeal!!!)


Then the domino's started.... interview...job offer......will i/wont i.....pros/cons.....endless nights of tossing and turning.......... uprooting 3 kids and hitting to a country alone, where i knew no -one etc


its funny what convinced me to come here, is the one thing that didn't work out!


its been a rollercoaster..... of ups and downs, broken promises, tears and smiles... i don't know if i have completely made my mind up yet! its a good life, my kids smiles say it all, and I'm sooooo lucky in so many ways! But there are still buts....


I miss my friends, i miss my family, i miss down time, i miss home............ suppose I'm just lonely! a loneliness i have never known! i know i shouldn't complain, I'm supposed to pretend its all good, its all amazing, its all perfect! but as things at home are tough... which is better to have people around you that you love to help through tough times................. or be where its all supposed to be good and you have no-one, no-one to just tell you it will be ok, no-one to give you that much needed hug, sometimes just having a good job, some money etc isn't everything!


despite the complaining at how bad life is at home.... life is going on, nothing much has changed!! people are going to work or not! (ok so a little more are not) going for a couple of beers at the weekend, catching a rugby game! ok so its not like 2/3 years ago with 2 foreign holidays a year but that was only going to last so long either way. So salaries have dropped, but yet everyone i know who wants a job has one! and people who don't, just don't want a job bad enough :) its a perfect excuse to have some time off that you couldn't have justified any other time!! i know a lot who are using this to their advantage!!! maybe I'm missing something.... maybe I'm sick of people telling me how lucky i am to be here, and oh how fantastic life must be..... life has never been so hard, we are making the most of it, having fun whenever we can!! but is far from the perception! if the reality was known...............

was watching a movie (alone sitting on my couch again) last night which summed up so much......
50% of life is what you do with it.... the other 50% and the more important part is who you share it with!!!

Thank God for my one sanity in life, the one thing in life I'm truly proud off......... my kids. Thank you for sharing the ride with me!!





k my rant over for tonight.....